It is difficult to count the number of times I have been 'blessed' with something I never wanted in the first place. Big or small- things have happened in a way I never wanted them to happen. There are others who want to trade places with me, exchange my fortunes and I don't decline- just that it is not possible.
And then, what I do want, doesn't happen either. The 'blessings' aren't showered when I want. What is the point in getting something I don't want? I don't get any pleasure from it, and someone else is denied his/her happiness.
And then, what I do want, doesn't happen either. The 'blessings' aren't showered when I want. What is the point in getting something I don't want? I don't get any pleasure from it, and someone else is denied his/her happiness.
Is it bad luck as I have believed till recently? or is it a mere coincidence? or do I attract all the wrong things and repel the right ones?
I am still wondering...
